Saturday, September 12, 2015

Going through an emotionally distress stage. Forgive me for not stating the reason, because I'm just not ready to accept it yet. Friends from IMU should have known the news. Other than them, I didn't really tell others about it. Snapchat friends would probably got the idea.

The need to express myself. I feel lost and demotivated. The feeling of emptiness and sadness took over me. Trying to fill the void and getting back on track, but the other part of me is breaking down inside.
Home that doesn't feel like home. Living a zombified life.
I guess you can say that I'm the worst at adapting because I'm blessed for the past 20 years of my life. But before you judge, you don't see the time when I struggle to get back up at my lowest point. I only show you what I want you to see, only me myself and I know my life story. We all have our own ups and downs. Everyone went through a different life, brought up under a different environment.

Sometimes, it's just sad that I'm not being able to join the fun anymore. No more shoulder to cry on and losing my happy virus :( No one to lean on when I'm stress af. I honestly don't feel like doing anything, I have been slacking and not giving my best at everything.
It's totally different. Switching to a different condition and environment.

Can't I have a good year for once? Regretted decision. Life.


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