Saturday, September 12, 2015

Going through an emotionally distress stage. Forgive me for not stating the reason, because I'm just not ready to accept it yet. Friends from IMU should have known the news. Other than them, I didn't really tell others about it. Snapchat friends would probably got the idea.

The need to express myself. I feel lost and demotivated. The feeling of emptiness and sadness took over me. Trying to fill the void and getting back on track, but the other part of me is breaking down inside.
Home that doesn't feel like home. Living a zombified life.
I guess you can say that I'm the worst at adapting because I'm blessed for the past 20 years of my life. But before you judge, you don't see the time when I struggle to get back up at my lowest point. I only show you what I want you to see, only me myself and I know my life story. We all have our own ups and downs. Everyone went through a different life, brought up under a different environment.

Sometimes, it's just sad that I'm not being able to join the fun anymore. No more shoulder to cry on and losing my happy virus :( No one to lean on when I'm stress af. I honestly don't feel like doing anything, I have been slacking and not giving my best at everything.
It's totally different. Switching to a different condition and environment.

Can't I have a good year for once? Regretted decision. Life.


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  1. Fight that sadness! We all have that times that we need to fight on our own but it's not like nobody's waiting at you on the other side it's just these are the times you need to be strong because you are the one who needed you the most. Stand up! and don't let what you see be the one who affect you. Make your own environment and don't make the environment make you :)

  2. Hwaiting! We all love you.

  3. Aww I hadn't read your blog since you left Penang and I see this. There, there. We have all been here. You're young so much more life is ahead rather than behind; if you have to change any decision now is the best time. :) Nobody starts out on the right track. You have to learn and see what's out actually out there and then see how it can best fit you. We make like 2000 changes till it sorts out (made up math LOL.) Be brave, be strong, it'll be the best thing you ever did for yourself. I went to the wrong school in the beginning then I switched and to a different town and it remains the best most important moment in my life. Good luck, pumpkin! x, d.